Saying goodbye
As I have to say goodbye to some friends here, I have thought much of Paul in the Bible. He knew many people across many different areas. Saying goodbye after knowing someone for a week does not carry as much as knowing someone for quite some time. Yet, during this time, it is exactly what I have been doing.
Today, I stopped in to see a friend, whom I have been having trouble getting in touch. At first there was very little understanding of my decision and leaving. There is so much attached but only so little I can say, which makes it hard. I thought for the longest tonight on how I could explain this without going into much detail. The night was about to end and I had already dropped off his girlfriend and was about to drop him off when the conversation came back up. He was somewhat let down and it hit me what to say.
I thought during this night why cannot I not come up with something to say besides the fact that I have to leave. The problem was that I was wrestling with my mind and my thoughts, which included emotions of worry and sadness. What I was missing was the whole night was letting the Holy Spirit lead me into exactly what I needed to say.
Though many things, many people have not understood a lot. Many have asked why would you come here, why are you leaving, or why have you not left before now? Simply, because I can truly say that in each case, coming and leaving, it has been in God's time and will, not mine nor anyone else's will. Have I done everything according to His will?...no, but in our mistakes we learn. I have not regrets and cherish every moment that I have had. I have had a blast.